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How bad do YOU want is?  This is what I asked myself this morning after getting off the phone with @tarynp from Twitter.  We have been communicating on Twitter about merchant accounts for the last few weeks and finally had a second to chat this morning.  (Great lady by the way!).

Anyway, after getting off the phone with her, I realized that I have been stopping myself for succeeding in the way I have envisioned my life and dreams.  I have been the one in the way of my success.  What the hell!  Oh, heck no!  That is just unacceptable to me. How is it that I am in the way of my OWN happiness.   It’s so much easy to blame others for your lack of success.  I think its so difficult to say, that you yourself is the cause of your lack of success.

So then the next statement to myself was this:  Get the heck out of my way…lol.  Yes, I said it.  I can not have you stopping me from my God giving blessings.  I can not tell you how HUGH this moment was for me.  I can not believe that I have been fighting with myself!  Fighting against the things I truly want.  How crazy is that?  LOL!

So now that I know that I have been the problem all along, things are about to change!  Everyday I will ask myself : ” How bad to I want it?”  I know that there will be good day as well as bad.  I can not and will not allow the bad ones to take over my dreams again.  They mean way to much to me!  I simply have to just move out of my way!

Thanks for listening….

Best,

Natalie

I just had the biggest dejavu moment-only I have never really experienced it.  Well, except for on my two week vacation…  That was nice!!!!  LOL- hence the dejavu feeling.  Anyway, I just sat down on my bed with a cup of coffee to my computer.  This is what I want my every day life to be like.  Waking up to a nice fresh pot of decaf coffee, enjoying the quite of my room or office.  Then easing onto my day…sigh…what a dream that is for me.  Well, not a dream but my goal for the end of the year.  I will be making the transition from full-time self employed out side of the home to full-time stay at home.  That is my one true goal for 2009.  Watch out world- here I come!

Best Regards,

Natalie